One day at a time. Life is good.
Addiction, Mental Health, and Society
For me the date was March 14, 2003. Ten years ago. A day I hope I never forget. And one I hope I never, ever repeat.
“Woman Injured In Blaze”
The journey beyond a small town newspaper headline.
March 23, 2007 started off like every other day had for as long as I cared to remember, with one exception. Two days prior Friday the 23rd, I knew that I had to stop drinking. Let me clarify… not to stop drinking completely but to control my drinking enough so that I wouldn’t be sick and shaking in the morning. I needed to control my drinking enough that I could get through the entire day without the feeling of my skin turning inside out.. I knew that my body had officially become reliant on an 80 proof half gallon of cheap ass vodka.
I was tired… but not defeated
In my infinite wisdom, and in my fractured and out of focus state of mind, I knew if I could get through 3-5 days without the booze, I’d be…
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I really, really, really love this blog!
I was going to title this ‘Holy Shit, I’m going to outlive my parents!’ But this title works too.
The concept of time never ceases to amaze me. When I look back… I realize that for 10 years I lived drink to drink… anything else and everything else took second place. Selfish, Self-Seeking, Destructive & Complacent. I was all of these things for so long that when I first got sober, any sense of normalcy made my skin crawl.
Normal was uncomfortable. Where was the ‘rush’ in just doing ordinary, blasé, normal things? Oh how my ego and hubris fought me every step of the way on my journey to Normalville. I would cringe at what I considered the most dull, boring and mundane of tasks. Then one day, something shifted. I’d say this was around 3 years clean, sober & working a program.
It was at this evolution of…
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Things I Love Thursday
There isn’t a week that passes where I don’t hear the word ‘demon’ in regards to someones battle with addiction. Do the following phrases sound familiar?
‘I have to be stronger than this demon’
‘One of these days I will beat this demon’
‘Once I am free from this demon, my life will be perfect’
Did you notice that the word demon and whatever the drug of choice are interchangeable. Wouldn’t the ‘battle’ of recovery be so much easier if we could conquer this ‘demon’? Unfortunately, recovery is not a battle…. it’s a journey. If I thought that I could ‘win’, ‘beat’ or ‘conquer’ my demon… my battle would have been lost before the very first fight. Journey…. not a battle.
The other element that we have to remember is that our addiction is within us, it is a part of us. It is not an separate entity that we…
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